Nice 1.. I tot this would be a great gathering.. I can only close 1 eye.. Haiz.. Cause y? They said meet together for movie then go steamboat.. But ys dunno we going for steamboat.. Haiz..

Then today, I woke up at around 3pm.. Tot they would be meeting us.. End up.. They went out already.. This is ok, we can meet them lata.. But end up WJ, Alvin and solo watch their terminator.. Good job ar..!!

Ys n Wc was rather pissed off.. So we didnt care about them, we went for our movie also lor.. Ys, Wc and me watch Night At The Musemum2 at 5.45pm de.. A great show.. But shes not there with me.. Kinda sad.. then end at around 7pm++.. Only then we called alvin n guys out.. They were at alvin house playing game.. U called this a gathering? I DONT..

So Ys, Wc and me shop around while waiting for them lor.. Then after which they came, didnt know wad to eat, then we went to pepper lunch.. hahas.. Taken a few photos.. xD Actually wanted to take a photo of the gathering.. End up everything jux.. SPOILT MOOD.. Haiz..

Then I was so tired.. So I went home first, while Ys, Wc, Clement and Solo went to play mahjong.. I even got a beer while I was on the way home.. Now drinking.. So happy emoing.. Lols..

So tats about all for today, tml gonna go swimming.. Hope it would be better lor..





This is wad I had.. Nice.. XD..





This reciept.. Dunno why it was folded into a boat.. Lol..





This is the beer I brought.. And Im happily emoing drinking now..

Wow.. Was rather sad at first.. Because I tot im unable to see her today.. But ended up she called mi, asking mi for dinner.. Haha.. So happy to see her.. ^^ xD

Today is like a gathering.. Can we have more gathering like this? Almost every1 came down... except weijie.. Haha.. Then it will be 10 people.. So happy.. Chatting wif them.. Haha.. The basketball game was also super fun.. Even tot theres winning n losing.. That wasnt the most important part.. The most important part was all bros came down.. Haha.. Super fun..

Tml should be going for the movie session.. Are u going? I would be glad if u go.. xD If u r going, any movie would be nice.. hahas..

Gonna end here le.. >.< To be continue..! hahaha..

Today was a rather suckie day.. I just dun feel really good larhz..
Wtf.. U go meet her, tell mi u go eat.. Great..

And can u guys stop asking mi wad time play ball? I dun wanna decide.. I hate making decisions.. Just let mi know u guys are playing basketball later will do.. Alright?? Thanks..!

Actually wanted to acc WC to TP de.. But ended up we both overslept.. So thus we didnt go.. Siansation.. But last night was tired, but dun feel like sleeping.. Haiz..

Guys.. Im not attached.. If I am, I will tell u all de.. Its proud to have a gf ok.. But anyway im not.. Im jux chasing her.. But dun think she will like me larhz.. So.. Lately tons of memories came back to me.. And only then I know I did tons of lousy things.. Seriously.. I dun think I a good fren..

I got a fucking bad temper.. Which I dun think there is a some1 who can stand mi.. I am crazy at times.. Doing crazy stuff.. But lately I dun think I am myself.. Totally dun feel angry at all.. Lost all my fighting spiriting.. T.T Tat is even when ppl bang me purposely during basketball games.. Which I normally get super angry.. But I didnt..

Last but not least.. I seriously dun wan to lose any fren anymore.. Leaving poly, is like tons of frens leaving me le.. Frens from secondary school, all grown up le.. Got their stuff to do, like NS and earning money.. Basketball frens, all are mostly in NS, busy earning money and schooling.. T.T Really tired of life.. Sian le..

Can any1 tell mi the truth? Why lie to me? I didnt do anything bad.. All I need is truth.. This few days im really happy.. Sending her home.. Hope she feels the same too.. I shall end here.. Haiz.. Really DISAPPOINTED..

Dammit.. Imeem got problem.. Sads.. Create playlist le.. Cannot put music into the playlist.. T.T Yesterday wanted to edit the songs de.. Sian.. Then cannot.. Ended up wake up le, still cannot.. Any1 knows y?? Please tell mi.. I need music music music..!! Sobs..

Hmm.. today my stomach wasnt feeling too good.. Dun feel like eating.. T.T

I actually very happy getting her, her fav orange juice.. Lol.. And I sent her home again.. Haha.. Wow.. and its like getting faster n faster.. So fast reach her block le.. Sian.. But while she was walking up.. I normally will wait till I cant see her then I go off.. And I saw her with the smile waving mi goodbye.. OH MI GOD.. Its so sweet.. lols..

After that I went for basketball.. Hahas.. Was a enjoying 1.. Then waiting for kor kor to reach, then went to A&Z to eat.. I ate the nasi lemak.. Wow the chicken wing today was so nice.. Lol.. Then we went over to Dou Hua Chen.. To eat dou hua.. wahaha.. Nice also.. 1 of my fav larh.. Wanted to take photo of it.. But see the dou hua was drooling.. Then forgetten.. Lol..

Most importantly, when I told her I dun think I will be able to make it today to chat with her.. She told mi she sad.. hahas.. Siao hor? ppl sad im happy.. lols.. No No.. Im happy cos she is waiting for mi.. And maybe she miss mi?? lols... hahas..

Stay tune.. xD.. lols.. Hmm.. Tats all for today.. Looking forward to tml.. Cos Im able to see her again.. ^^ Nightz.. Sugar Dreams..

Today was a rather emo day, got bored of dota suddenly.. Dunno wad I am playing.. Hmm.. 7am.. I cant sleep (dunno wad im think, jux cant sleep). I went down to the park near my house, for a jog.. 5 rounds onli larhz.. Hmm.. then went home.. While walking home its like so giddy.. Out of breath.. >.< like anytime will faint..

So i quickly go home bath n rest.. Woke up at around 1pm or 2pm.. Due to a phone call thx to JOE NG.. THX ALOT LEHz.. lols.. Then woke up listening to HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL de songs.. Wow.. I simply LOVE those songs.. Especially, Can I have this dance? xD

Then rot till around like 9pm, I went down for basketball.. Oh Me God.. Saw those uncle that come down onli on friday.. I was shock.. Tot today was friday, so i quickly check my phone the date today.. Its wed leh.. Lol.. Played 1 round of Full court.. Wah.. I totally dun have feeling already.. shooting sux, passing sux.. everything jux sux.. >.<

Then I went to fetch joey home.. Was a sweet walk, was happy chatting wif her.. haha.. But so sorry, I didnt know ur leg hurt, We should had taken bus.. Hows ur leg?
Hmm.. I think that should be all about today.. Gonna draw a tree, a house and a person.. haha.. its fun listen to her saying about how can drawing tell about a person.. or to say the person who draw the picture.. lols..

Last but not least, This is our First Time we took Pictures together..

Hmmm.. I felt so bad after the chat jux now.. I know u were trying to be karing.. But I dun have a reason to quit smoking.. Smoking doesnt mean Im a bad person, even tot I know other people dun think so.. Its jux.. Haiz..

I dunno how to discribe this feeling.. I jux feel so unhappy.. Its kinda like losing a fren once again.. Cos i smoke? Y do ppl doesnt like other smoke? I seriously dun understand.. This comes back my memories of her.. Haiz.. Remember the first time I went to smoke outside her house.. And her mother went, so young smoke, dun even know how to earn money.. Haiz.. Just felt so hurt.. Really.. And this is why her mum dislike mi.. I dunno.. Really dunno.. I onli smoked.. I didnt do any bad things.. Its not like I rob or steal.. I DIDNT!! So many people smoke, but got accepted.. Y just ppl cant accept the fact that I smoke?? Been losing frens, my close one jux because I smoked..

U can say im selfish, u can say im strubbon.. Tats me.. Nths gonna change anymore.. Never.. I tried so hard to get over sad things, n now it like everything is jux coming back to me.. Can I jux forget everything?? Haiz..

Life been so hard ever since she left me.. I tried all that I can to forget everything, n things has jux been starting to change better.. Why all this comes back to me at this time?? Why.. I dun understand.. I jux simply hate this feeling..

God Help Me..! Sadness has never left me.. Not even once.. Everything is jux like smokescreen.. Or perhaps I create this smokescreen to make myself feel better?? But jux when I feel better the smokescreen left me??

Feeling like crying again..

^^.. Got back in touch wif a cute fren.. So cute that she ask mi to blog about mi back in touch wif her.. ^^ hahas..

So funny, and I seriously dunno wad to blog about.. And she ask mi to blog about wad i do today.. =.-

Until now I haven sleep yet.. So tired.. Was playing dota.. Yesterday night till morning.. then went for swimming.. Was a relaxing 1.. Haha.. And got my Face Toasted.. XD

Haha.. Went back home around 3pm++, then back to yishun eat KFC!! hahas so long didnt eat le.. xD then raech home dota again.. Till now.. xD Then mean while dotaing.. My sis help me do a mask.. To protect my face.. hahas.. COOLING.. XD..

then im bloggin now le.. ^^ Really dunno wad to blog le.. lols.

TAke kare readers..!! PEace.. ^^

Hmm.. First of all.. Im sorry mum.. I think I made u super worried for me.. I also dunno what had I been doing.. I know u always wanted me to stay at home, even if I went out, u wont say anything.. But staying at home alone is super boring.. And I know my attitude sux.. I jux can control.. Sorry.. Since MOTHER's Days coming.. I want to tell u, U HAD BEEN A GREATEST MUM, even if ur not the world's best.. But at least U R the BEST MUM to me.. Really Thanks for taking kare of us for so long..

Next dad.. hmm.. I always attitude back to u.. Im sorry too.. Seriously, I also dunno why, whenever u start saying why I didnt come home yesterday, I will feel so irritated.. Sorry..

Gonna go for NS in like a month or 2.. Hope everything goes smoothly.. I hope mum wouldn't need to be so xin gu anymore le..

Think i've changed? I dunno.. All I know is I lost my way of life.. Dunno what to do everytime when I wake up.. Haiz.. Can some1 guide mi?

Lastly, WC told mi about some1.. Hmm.. Yeah we are right.. She got a bf already.. So wad? Even tot I wanted to have a gf.. But I guts are telling mi, I shouldn't have 1 now.. I might jux go crazy if anything goes wrong.. Anyway thx wc.. Thx for helping mi find out the answer.. But Nothing matter as much as my family and money now..!

Tats all for now.. I love u MUMMY..! I love my Family too..! Peace.. ^^