I think Im back le ba.. Finally back to my normal self. Cheers ^^.. Anyway Thanks to all my frens. (MY FREN ARE ALL RETARTED !!) hahaha.. So funny de la.. I watched Chocolate, the fighting show. Wow, eat chocolate n u will be a good fighter.. But anyway even tot the movement are slow.. But it is quite a meaningful show bahz..

Yesterday, woke up like around 1pm++, then rot will like 3.30pm then went to bath. Meet WC, acc him go cheat MC.. lol.. Then we went to eat my 925 (chicken rice, nice). Then we went to swimming. Wow it was fun.. Then clement n Wc dare mi go take gals number.. Went to take their numbers la.. I have balls in-between my legs LAHZ.. Hahass.. Got to know 2 more gals le.. ^^.. Then sms her for like the whole night? lols.. Kinda of.. I went running after that.. I run 7 rounds non-stop lahz.. getting more n more power le.. But is she help mi add oil de lahz.. lols.. Im gonna have a very fit n well build body.. GG.. Now in class, lata got FYP, need disccus about my video shooting(portfolio) or so called term-break de project. Busy Busy Busy.. ^^..

Alright thats all for today.. Gonna post more when Im free.. ^^

Haiz.. First of all.. I dunno what I am doing this few months.. Really! I wasnt concentrate in studies.. I keep oversleeping.. Or dun wanna wake up.. Haiz.. Jux sux.. Things I wanted to do.. End up half done.. Really.. Haiz.. All I can do is to drink and smoke.. This are the two I could finish..

Every Night I miss u alot.. Alot alot.. Everytime.. I think of patching with u.. But I did not see a clear road.. Or to even say no path way to that.. Haiz.. I didnt sleep well all this times.. The only time i could sleep well was that when I was drunk.. Its all my thinking only.. But I know its impossible.. Life did not end.. But Life is dead..

I cannot do this anymore.. I need to go on with my studies.. I dun wan to fail.. I really dun wan to.. I will stand up.. I must..!

God has 2 box.. 1 is to store happiness, while the other 1 is to store all the unhappiness, but this 1 has a hole in it. So this is my unhappiness box..

Life sux.. 07 may 2008 9 am+ I cried.. Really cried out from the bottom of my heart.. I dunno how long I can take this.. Life is not going smoothly.. I was from heaven before.. But now Im at a bottomless hole.. I sinking in.. I tot I have frens and games with me.. And I will be ok.. But no im not.. Frens really acc me.. Especially clement.. He tried to acc me out.. Of cos must thanks pei rou.. And also my other frens.. But really.. I am very tired.. Very very tired.. I always tried to smile.. Be happy.. But my heart is actually crying.. Even when I wan to cry.. I store it.. Controlling.. Not to cry.. I dun wan other people and my family to worry for me.. Just now.. I cried in the bathroom.. Only then I see my real self.. Everything is pushing me to my limit.. I feel very stress.. Before I have her.. I know even if I lost everything or when I feeling down.. She will always be there.. But now.. All I wish was she can know a better bf.. Really take care of her.. Love her.. Give her all the happiness in the world..

I dun wan to go to school because I will always hope to see her on bus, because we always go school together.. But untill that day.. I saw her on bus.. Only then I realise that I am dreaming.. We are not together anymore.. But I dun wan to wake up.. I dunno if I am able to face it.. Can I?
I know running is not right.. But to me.. I really cant face these anymore.. All I can do is to run away..

Today.. my phone line got cut.. Thanks to the good luck.. Clement and I went to jurong for swimming. When I go out of my house.. It started raining.. But it was small.. So I met up with clement.. Went to jurong.. And the cloud was dark.. I told myself.. Its ok.. We still have time.. So we went to eat at jurong.. Then went to the complex.. When we just got it.. The whole complex was covered with dark cloud.. So we sat at the eating place to play game.. Then the lifeguard start to chase people out of the water.. Cause lighting strike and thunder roar.. Then the rain stop.. We went to play in the water.. but it was so boring.. All I see was couples in water.. After awhile we got up.. Play game.. then the dark cloud came back.. Good luck? Then we went off around 4.30pm.. Then got thirsty.. Brought water to drink.. And sat down to finish the drink, got nothing to do.. So we play MH.. Got thrash.. Then PSP no battery le.. Then got on train.. Tot I have MP3 still can listen songs.. About 2 stops later.. My MP3 no battery.. Can listen songs already.. Good luck? Just only told my mum about the pay.. But thanks again.. I know her problem.. I cannot blame her.. I can only blame myself.. She said let the line be cut.. Oh god.. Please help me.. I wanted to buy Pre-paid card.. But no money le.. So nice.. Tml got FYP.. How can I contact my frens? Problem Problem Problem..

I really got nobody to share with.. Really.. Haiz.. Can life still goes back time? I need to take a rest.. I need to call my FYP team mates.. To My FYP team mates: Really sorry that I got my personal things in.. Sorry.. I cannot join u all tml.. I promise I will get back on friday.. Sorry people..

Thanks to every1.. Im sorry..

Yesterday I woke up.. Because I dreamt of you.. We broke up again.. So painful.. I dont feel like going to skool.. No mood.. I slept till around 12~1pm.. Woke up bath and have to go to skool for FYP.. Force myself to go to skool.. After FYP finished.. I went home.. Whole Day dun feel like eating.. Then at night.. I finally feel hungry.. When to eat with solo and Ys.. Ys house got cook.. So he didnt eat.. After eating, Draw money lend YS.. Only then found out.. I only left with very little money..

Today.. I jump out of bed, told myself I must come skool.. Finaly.. Im at skool.. But in bus, I saw her.. And everything about her started poping out in my mind.. I felt so sad.. Just feel like crying.. Can I go home now? Really hope I can hide in corner and cry..

I read ur blog.. I know u r having fun.. I know i shouldnt kare anymore.. But.. Please make sure u know the people around u before u play/go out with them ok? Dun let any people take advantage from u.. Take good kare of ur body/urself.. Dun let ur parents worry and me.. Thanks for every thing ur gave me.. Those times were happy and good.. I will sure remember those times.. TK..

I wan to go home.. !!