Yesterday went to jurong swiming pool with clementi.. Lol.. He hor.. See gals onli ar.. He Drool le.. Omg.. Haha.. Some more the dragon on his shoulder and the samurai on the back will will "lo Ink" de.. hahas so funny.. I tell pei rou then u know ar.. But anyway.. I had alot of fun there.. Thanks..!

This few days altot still sad.. But feeling better le.. Thanks Guys.. Gonner Open a "Gay Club" le.. OMG.. lols.. Really la.. Clementi so funny de lor.. He go where also kena sour de.. For nth somemore.. Ke lian la.. Haha..

Went to jurong swimming.. Got whole body taned.. But.. Pain la.. Sian.. Muscle Pain some more.. I got my muscle aching must thank yongsheng la.. GG.. Ask mi do wad pull up/chin up.. WTF.. Pain la.. Dunno how many days cannot play ball le la.. Sian Rise hand also will pain de lor.. Ouch!! GG.. Gtg.. Play game liao le..

It all my fault.. I cant stop thinking.. I dun feel like coming to skool.. Just suddenly feel like dying.. What should I do? Im in pain.. Real pain.. Fren wanted to acc me.. But for how long can fren be with me? I need to secret corner, only me n myself.. Cry there n I hope I will be ok.. Life jux not going the right way.. Can I live a better life? Without her, WHAT AM I?? I dun feel like laughing.. But I have to force myself laughing.. I dun wan ppl to know.. Dun wan.. Please god.. help me.. I cant even believe myself anymore.. Im not able to do anything on my own.. I jux feel so lonely.. I feel like crying again.. Maybe I should hide in my room forever.. Can I? I always call fren out.. But all I get was they are not free.. I watch a show.. I remember.. The guy ask the gal.. Even when u r with alot of ppl, Do u still feel lonely.. I do feel very lonely.. Really..

Going back to work.. Numb myself.. Maybe I will feel better.. I will..!

We broke up this morning.. I dunno what to do.. Dun feel like going to skool.. But I woke up this morning for nth.. Told myself to go to skool.. But... I felt so hurt.. Painfull.. I want to cry.. But my tears just wont drop.. OUCH..! Really painfull.. I got nth to do now.. So I tot of coming to blog can maybe make me feel better.. I cant sleep last night.. So I created this blog..

Got nth to do.. So I completed my game (Final Fantasy), in which I played very long already.. I was so keen to see the ending.. Ok.. I saw the ending.. Zack hide Cloud, and went to face everything by himself.. And was slowly killed.. WHY?? Do good ppl always die?? When Zack was dying, Cloud went over to him.. "Embrace Ur Dreams".. Felt So touch.. Feel like crying again..

I am still waiting for her sms.. WHY?? But everytime I see my phone.. Jux felt so hopeless.. This time I know its over.. Really over.. Actually I knew it already.. 1 week.. 1 whole week i didnt received any of ur sms/calls... I told myself to understand.. I get myself out every night to play.. Told myself not to think about it.. It will be ok.. But till yesterday night.. Felt so lonely.. Who could acc mi? U know how painfull I feel?? Nths gonner changed.. I know.. But I jux cant pull myself together.. What am I gonner do?? Part of myself is lost.. No more happiness.. Onli sadness left..

So This is my first post after for like 2 years? lols.. Hmm.. I create this blog for my own purpose. Its not for any1 to view this blog. The other reason is because I felt that all my unhappiness can be recorded inside here. As in I have nobody to share with. So I tot i could blog and share it.